When you hate yourself your job will never be winning enough, You will never be paid enough, and you will never be satisfied. I personally went through this during my firing and years after. I had to witness less talented pro riders racing in the Tour De France while I cleaned up maggot infestations as a dishwasher. At the time I was furious at the corrupt lying racers misleading the world while I was there suffering. But this painful process would eventually lead to becoming the best gift they could have given me.
When you lose all forms of external love and you believe your true love is not yourself it is the most excruciating experience ever. Literally you feel like jumping in front of a train, and I was close to it as the cops arrested me at the tracks waiting for a train.
But through massive amounts of trazadone finally sleeping for 14 hours a day for a few months, and a few more years of slowly healing and learning true love is ourselves and winning doesn't matter through countless more life experiences of my closest friends betraying me even outside of pro cycling it became cemented in my soul.
This process is what people fear. But go through it, and if you fear it let me explain the knowledge I learned to assist you. Jobs are in relationship to how much you truly love yourself. When you hate yourself you will have the easiest job possible making the most money. When you truly love yourself you will work the job where you work the hardest but make the least amount of money. The highest pay of the lowest paying real job. Taking low pay and working hard is self hating so get your max pay but don't let it matter. Ultimately money doesn't matter, we can live off starvation wages in reality and be perfectly fine. For example I found a $90,000 house and turned it into one of the nicest houses in town, now I'm making $100,000 on the sale of it. This is one example of how applying hard work to what you can get in the end pays huge dividends.
Take the hardest job you can find, the one nobody wants. These are the jobs that are REAL jobs and jobs that you can keep into the future and they are the essential jobs. When you truly love yourself you will hammer away at Mc Donald's and clean the toilets, bust your ass for minimum wage, but your future is bright. When you hate yourself and have some bs non real Hollywood type of job it's an illusion that will soon pop.
When you truly love yourself you won't be ruled by materialism so the money you make you will keep. When you hate yourself you will blow all your high paying money and have zero in the bank. In the long run the only true job security is in the low paying, high workload "shit" jobs. Artificial intelligence will soon replace all the bullshit trying to win high paying jobs you have convinced yourself are real. Don't be like a typical Democrat crying about working a hard job for less spitting in food. Becoming a hard working true self loving Republican is the key to your survival. Bust your ass and soon you will have everything you need but you will no longer desire it.
Keep up the self hate winning bullshit jobs and you will never be satisfied and no matter what you get it will never be enough. Only work essential jobs into the future and this covid-19 experience will let you know if you have a bullshit job or not, but also consider if you are extremely fat chances are you aren't working hard enough. You should be thin, bust ass, and be working hard like a true self loving maniac.
When you apply this you will rapidly vault to the top of the management scale of life. I went from a dishwasher to a project manager and I oversee millions in real estate with a future brighter than the sun. Yes, that is me in the Ferrari, Tesla, Porsche, lifted Truck, and I got to this level by not caring about winning and simply by truly loving myself. I'm not sure you will reach my level, but you might, and you might go further. Everyone offers me jobs and work even at the grocery store elite businessmen approach me. I turn down jobs all of the time even in this economy with homeless self haters begging for money at the corner, stealing shit from Walmart, and running from the cops on a stolen child's scooter to go hide in the woods thinking Trump is a racist and blaming everyone but himself that he is the reason for his subordination.
Quit your bullshit YouTube job cutting off your penis to sell and wear women's make up. Be a true love is ourselves and winning doesn't matter positive energy dominator and stand strong with your Mc Donald's gear with your head held up high, clean cut, well dressed, and wonderful to be around. Plus you will get so much ass, you will fuck half the girls at Mc Donald's in their asshole and they have nice thick fat asses there from all those French fries. Tons of hotties at Mc Donald's. You will get so much pussy or dick whatever it is you want you will feel like a pornstar. Shit I'm about to start working at McDonald's right now.
That is all.